Tuesday - Up and At 'Em

Good Morning All!!

Late to Bed and Early to Rise........ that seems to be my mantra lately.  What happened to the days I was in be a 11:00, watched the news, then slept til at least 6:00?  Those days are long gone!  I guess part of it is one of the symptoms of Jim's liver disease is a "reversal" of his clock - up all night, sleep all day.  If he can't sleep, why should I be able to.

Finally went to the hospital - what a disaster.  First had to stop at a tire place because there was a funny noise in the back of my car - turned out one of the treads on a rear wheel went bad. Not the first time that's happened.  So we didn't arrive at the ER until around 3:00 - and the waiting room was overflowing.  Got triaged quickly - that happens when you say one of the magic phrases:  Shortness of Breath.  (the other being Chest Pains.)  But, then the waiting began.  It was 4:30 or so before we went into the treatment area; Jim's "room" was a space in the hallway. The ER is always busy, but yesterday it was horrendous.  I heard one nurse say there were over 100 patients waiting and being treated.  Made it to his room at 10:15.  This time he only had to see four different doctors before being admitted, last time it was seven or eight.  Exams, blood work, EKG and X-rays.  He's supposed to be "tapped" today, so hopefully this admission won't be six days like the last one. When he gets discharged, I'll be asking about future taps - because this is likely going to be a regular thing - I can't imagine having to go through the ER routine every time - maybe once he sees his new doctor on 6/29, the process can be streamlined.

I go so angry at him yesterday.  We had stopped at the tire place on the way back from the clinic at 10:00, we were waiting and he got impatient, so left without having the tire checked out.  So when we were leaving to go to the hospital, we had to go back to the tire place, delaying the trip to the hospital.  I was really p*ssed because I knew we were facing an ER wait and I probably would not be coming home until late, and I hate driving in the dark.  He got upset that I was annoyed and things got "not nice" - I was ready to shove him out of the moving car. I take him every morning to the clinic (he has  no license), and I've been "super nice" to him at home fixing really nice dinners for him, helping him shower, cleaning up after he falls asleep with drinks in his hand (which I'm guilty of myself), etc.  So in the car, I told him I had the right to be annoyed because his leaving the tire place in the morning meant a late night for me.  Name calling ensued and he called me a "Black Widow" - saying I drove my husband to drink, and therefore caused his death.  I cry just thinking of those hurtful words.  And he wonders why lately I'm very quiet and I am not affectionate towards him.  Who would be when he says things like that?  I understand he's sick and under a lot of stress, but that's no excuse for being mean. Before I left him last night, he said something along the lines of he "couldn't get through this" without my help and he loves me, etc., etc., etc. ..... I told him that didn't cut it.  He's the type that thinks he can pretend he never said the cruel things and that means it never happened. No, it doesn't work that way.  Again - UGH!!

I am strong, I am invincible, I am woman.  Hear me R-O-A-R!!  We'll see what the new doctor says at the end of the month.

This weekend I must get the lawn mower fixed -- need my physical action to keep me sane.  And it looks like we've got Taylor, so I'll be out of this funk.

Prayers and good wishes to all.  Strange that Apple deactivated... I can understand being busy and not able to post often, but.....??  I hope she's ok and does well.  We're all a great bunch of ladies, and you all are so supportive and understanding -- LOVE YOU ALL!!  

Mary

Good Morning Mary & all the sisters who follow!

Mary, it sounds like you had a REALLY bad day yesterday! Sorry you had to go thru all that. A sick man, dealing w/the ER AND a problem w/the car is just TOO much! Plus I am sorry to hear about the 'fight' w/Jim. I tend to be the one who hits below the belt, and if Jim is anything like me he is feeling like crap for what he said. There is no excuse for it & it does lead to ppl pulling away when you are subjected to that kind of verbal free for all. My Jim says stuff under his breath rather than to my face when we are REALLY angry & that just makes me more angry. Unfortunate part of many relationships especially when under extreme stress. I hope you & Jim are better today...and you get to see Taylor so that is a reprieve to look forward...her picture was adorable!

Apple sure didn't stick around long...I was also confused by her deactivating altho her last post sounded kinda weird. Do you guys remember her or did she ever disclose her real name?

Judy, sorry to hear about your sister. I am sure hoping her surgery goes well & she can get some relief. Sounds like she has really been thru it!

Connie, I was relieved to hear you got the storage taken care of. That always feels good to accomplish something as huge as that. I hope you are feeling better today and are getting your proper rest. We miss you when you aren't on here.

Trish, sounded like a busy weekend w/your granddaughter's b-day party and your one on one 'date.' Jasmyn & I spend every Wednesday doing something together for a couple hours...our 'girl time.' I treasure that b/c I never got to do that with my 3 girls due to working & the logistics of trying to do 1 at a time & needing 'coverage' for the other 2.

Christine, I felt so bad for your man who was sent to put up your shed. I don't know if he was just overwhelmed or if the company should have sent more than one person to do the job...probably a little of both! Either way I'd want a partial refund. Plus it sounds like your wkend kinda got ruined sitting around...I used to live for my weekends when working. So it's extra good you stayed on course w/your food & exercise! Keep up the good work!

Vickie, hoping to hear from you today. I jump on & off when busy to keep up even if I don't always post & have seen where you hadn't posted. Hope all is going as well as can be expected.

I need to hop off to go to my 4th nutritionist appt. Will continue later.

Love & hugs to all.

Hello Kathy....I am glad you haven't left us....I just can't quite figure out why Laura (Apple) deactivated her account. Maybe for personal reasons she didn't want to give us personal information. Why close her account??? She said she may go back to lurking. Very strange. 

Oh Kathy...I was so glad when that storage door was shut for the very last time!!! I donated a lot of things!! My family took some as well. What a relief!! I missed all of you too!!

I hope your nutritionist appointment goes well...I can't see why it wouldn't. You are doing great!!!!

I am going to head out for my walk. It is still only 62 degrees. That is good walking weather. There is a nice breeze too!!!

I also started using weights last week for my upper body. I just sit and do most of them. I want to strengthen my arms.

Have a lovely day ....love and more hugs to you....connie d

Hi,

We got home around 2 Am! I will never take my cousin with me again!!! Talking non stop!!! Only gave me like 30.00 for has. Told me she would pay a third of the gas and one of the hotel bills! She didn't told me when we got to her house she didn't have the money! But she to,d me she opened up credit cards to buy her sister stuff in Chucago! Also told me she was in Bandrupcy! I said how did u open up credit card when u r in Bankrupcy!! She said well in I'll they don't check my credit! I went off yes they sure do!!!! I was pissed!!! The. Everything I had she wanted! I felt very uneasy!!! Never again!

ok rant over!!

trish sorry I didn't call you when we returned to Lansing. I was overwhelmed with things.

Hope Butch and Vickie are doing better. 

Carla

Hello Carla....that wasn't a very nice thing for your sister to do to you. She knew before the trip she couldn't pay. She should have been up front with you right away. I would have been angry too!! 

Sorry it ruined you day!!

Love and hugs to you....connie d

Hi Carla,

No problem about not being able to get together on your return trip.  I was crazy busy.

Sorry to hear about your cousin with the money.  I have been in bankruptcy in the past.  I could not get a credit card for seven years.  But, I have traveled with my sister, and we have always split the gas and hotels.  She would fill my car and pay the hotel one way, and I'd pay the other way.  No problems.  $30 would not fill my gas tank at all, and I only have a Camry.  You have a big SUV.  When I go back home, I use two tanks a gas, and possibly one hotel room, one way.  And that's only one way.  I get lucky when I pick Sean up in Pittsburgh, and he does half the driving, and I'm only driving 12 hours one way.  Plus, I pay his girlfriend to dogsit my Utley.  She has a pet sitting business, and Utley can be demanding for attention.  She loves him, and he gets along with their dog most of the time.  Usually once during a visit, he'll scuffle with their dog, but nothing serious.  If I had to kennel him, I'd spend several hundred dollars.  I usually give her half what I'd pay a kennel.  Plus, he doesn't spend half his time in a cage, like at the kennel.  He's given TLC, and actually gets super excited as I drive on their street, approaching their house.

Hang in there.

Good morning Mary and everyone....

I am sorry you had to spend such a long time at ER and the tire store. I feel even worse about the things Jim said to you. I hope he thinks about that real hard. All you do for him goes above and beyond what you need to be doing. I pray the new doctor ends up being more helpful. God Bless you my sweet friend!!!

Yes...I too am concerned about not hearing from Vickie. I am constantly watching for her posts. I pray things are going okay and that Butch isn't in horrible pain. Such a long hard road for this wonderful family. I love them very much!!

I don't know why Apple..Laura....left us. Deactivating her account completely is odd. I thought she was liking it here. I sure enjoyed her posts. I think maybe she was a private person and didn't like that she was asked to reveal more information about herself. I hope she reconsiders and joins us once again.

I hope you can manage to get your mower running again. I know that is really good exercise.

As for me.......I am definitely feeling better today. My hands aren't hurting like they were the last two days. My thumbs are still giving me grief but that is normal. I am still fatigued but that should go away soon. 

I am concerned about my daughter, Carrie. Sunday when they were going back home from the lake they witnessed a horrible accident. They were the first ones on the scene. A truck T-boned a man on a motorcycle. Carrie ran to the man that was on the motorcycle, now on the ground. She said she knelt down next to him and took his hand. He was a mess. She stayed there talking an praying for Troy until the EMTs arrived. He knew she was there. He passed away shortly after he got medical attention. I am so glad Carrie went and did that for him. Troy was wearing a helmet and dressed in leathers and boots like they should be. I continue to pray for his family. He was from Illinois and was in MN on a bike trip. Carrie needs prayers too. This ha**** her pretty hard. Thank you everyone. 

I need to head out for my walk now. I want to get outside before it gets any warmer out there! 

I sure missed all of you this weekend. I wanted to post but I was too tired to do so. My granddaughter, Amanda, made the meals and I just needed to veg out! Amanda is one of Carrie's daughters...Kyleigh is her other daughter. Their brother is Lucas. Nic and Gracie are my daughter Jamie's children!! I am so blessed!

I will check back in again when I finish my walk. 

Wishing you all a beautiful day!!   

Loads of love and tons of hugs to all of you.....connie d

Connie...your daughter was an angel for that poor man!!! She should be proud...I can only imagine how upset she is though....praying for her to get through how she is dealing with that though.

HUGSSSSSSSSSS

Judy....I am very proud of Carrie....we have always talked about what we would do should we come across an accident like that. She did the right thing...I am sure he will be watching out for her now. 

She called me again last night. She did sound a bit better. Just scared her so much. She wanted him to live so bad!!

Lots of love ...hugs....connie d

Oh Connie,

I'm praying for Carrie.  She definitely was Troy's angel at that accident.  It's so sad he died, but I'm glad that Carrie was so thoughtful to hold his hand, and let him know he was not alone.  She has your kind heart.

Love you.